I Fuckin Made it!! Thanx GOD!!

Finally I passed!!!
I'm now in the last year in college, in graduation year!!!!, the year after i'll be inhsalla a fuckin computers engineer!!!lol..
Oh My God! I jst cant wait to graduate and get a well paid job with foreign companies! and get a realy good pay, pay that makes me rich fast!!lol, damn dude, i can't fuckin wait..
getting a job better then interpretiation!! fuckin great man!!

Here i want thank all my friends that stood with me during my exams, and u ppl, my blog readers..
u ppl were the best supporter i ever had!
u ppl kept me motivated and kept me having hope!
i want thank my friends and my Heroine, she was and she is and she will be the great girl i've ever seen..
Heroine was always waking me up in phone calls, always tellin me to concetrate and study, always keeping me having hope and believe that i'll pass this year, she trusted myself more then i did to myself!!
I admit here,i'm without Heroine will be not able to pass this year, i passed bcuz of her!

thanx again everybody and very big thanx to God, my family and Heroine..

Sam, 75% Computers Engineer lOoOl!!
jst one year more and i'll be 100%, lol

Military Gears!

One of the most difficulties that we have in our job, is the Military life! specialy for person like me who never been in military before!! wen Saddam gone i was so damn happy, cuz i wont have to go to the army after i graduate! but God had the hardest Military waiting for me, bt not after graduation though!! jst right after the 2nd year in the college, when i had to be interpreter..

i became a Marine a Soldier without training!!!, i had to face the IED's wen they blow up, or the actions and gun fire, or rocks from kids throwing them at us, or hearing bad or good words from the locals!! how to walk in foot patrol! how to observe the ppl! wat i shud do wen we get attack, how to walk inisde a house! what firstly shud i do and ask!..alot of intelgence and millitary things..

the Gear is Vest (contents front, back and side plates and nick armor) wheights more than 20 pounds!! and helmet weights more than 2 pounds!! plus the camel bag for hydration and gloves and the boots that they weight more than 1.5 pounds.. plus the uniform, which is was like microwave!! it was so damn hot and it was anti-burning uniform..

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the Pic above is for broken down humvee that other Humvee is gonna pull it!! lol its the best army vehicles in the world that breaks down in the streets!!! imagine it breaks down while we getting attack or driving in danger areas!!


Riding in the humvee or the MRAP or the Bradely or in the back of the 7 tons or LAV isnt fun or joyful, its scary!! cuz u know that u r a target while u driving around and all the locals staring at u while u going through!, plus these vehicles r so hot, even if therez AC running, the vehicle still hot cuz its not totally closed!!

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the pic above for the worst helo ( the Big bitch)..





and if u wanted to flow from base to another, its not nice and comfortable too..

if u want to make a quarnteed flight, u have to do ASR (Available Seat Reservetion), and for the ASR it takes at least 4 days from the day of the flight,bt if u were in hurry, u shud try ur luck by Space-A( Space Available)..

the kinds of birds:

in west iraq most of the birds we use is the Big bitch and its the worst helo ive ever seen!!! its very loudy and noisy and wen u get inside it, the oil from the ceiling pours on us jst like the iraqi Tata ( old iraqi bus), and wen u aboard it make sure u carry vomit bag with u!!if u dont have the gunners will provide u with one when u vomit!!

Chinooks, V22's and BlackHawks r much better then the Big bitch, i like the blackhawks the most, its faster, smaller and more comfortable and u can see the ground better from it, but V22's r the best..



the above was abut the rides and clothes, and below is abut the way of living:


the way of living can be separated into 3 locations:

1st location and the worst is in the outposts ( small bases inside the cities) like school or houses or bank or any govt building!

the service in the outposts r sucks, specialy Marines ouposts r the worst, no good chow( military hot chow and MRE's), Navy showers if water available! portable toilets or shit bags! and u have to wash ur clothes by ur hand, or sending them to the laundry and ur clothes wont be back before week!!..




This is my tent in COP Ellis in Barwana ( Hadiatha), this place is the worst place ive ever seen and lived in!!

i lived there in Dec 2006, in winter time, its was sooooo damn cold, freezing, i didnt have blancket that time, i was wearing my vest to warm myself and tryin to sleep,and wearing 2 or 3 pair of sucks to warm my feet!! i dont remember that i cud slept more then continuous one hour for the 2 weeks i spent in that COP!! in the morning i find ice on the tent and frozen water on the tent sides!!


The chow there were so bad, there were no showers at all, i spent the 2 weeks with baby wipes!!tx to god it was winter time, not summer!!!



There were no internet, no phones available no MWR, i jst used the Radium(Millitary Sat. Phone) one time for few mins to call my family!!


the good thing in the Outposts is, wen u go out doin missions, u stop by houses and therez ppl do hospitality and offer us iraqi food and hot tea!!





2nd Location: the TCP's (Traffic Check Points); they r lil bit better then outposts, cuz pretty much u do is jst sitting in the TCP and read ID's or something, nothin important and needs hard work..
and the service sucks too, jst like the outposts!

the good thing in TCP's is u can buy anything that goes through the check point from the vendors..

3rd Location and the best: the Camps, the main big bases..
big Chow Hals (free restaurnets inside the base) served by Indians or Philipinos, and so clean latrines and showers, very nice rooms to live in,good hospitals, dentist, PX ( very big supermarket) and MWR( Phones, Internet, video room and games)..
the bad thing is, we r the locals r so ristricted in our movement inside the base, we shud have a special badge to move free and to enter facilities..

Well, i think im hitting the end of the post!
c ya fellas..

If Your Life Similar to This Life, Please Comment!

I'll talk here abut my life in certain period, from 10th Aug. (the day of my Birthday) till 17 Sept, and i want you ppl to be the judge in is it a "normal life" or "sucks life"..


10th Aug, is my birthday day,which is means that its special day for myself and ppl who cares and loves me!! but it wasnt realy!!


by the chance this year my bithday happened in the same week day at 10th Aug 1987 which was Monday..


my family made cake for me and it was allright!, i recieved SMS's and calls from friends and best friends of mine, the 1st congratulate i recieved was from a dear friend of me,i'll call her in my posts Heroine..


and in the same time i didnt recieve anythin from my girlfriend Amy!!!, she said that she forgot!!!cuz she is busy!!! and even after that, she didnt give me even a simple gift or apologized in nice way..


but its alright cuz I LUV HER!!


anyways after few days, she called in the middle of the night and she said Sam am sorry and lets forget the past and start a new begining!!! i was SOOOOO damn HaPpY..


i thought things will be great like it used to be between us and i'll be happy!!! but i was totaly wrong!!


we were alright for few days but the coldness started again!!


At 1st Sept. my family left to Syria and then supposly to London to see my older bro. bt they cudnt go to London cuz the money at the bank wasnt enough for all my family!! and my dad cudnt get the visa, only my sisters got it!


at 7 Sept. my 2nd try exams started and Amy never called and never asked, i had realy bad cold and loneliness days cuz i was totally alone at home!!


i did bad in first exam but i was good in the rest..


my family left for 12 days and it was realy bad days, bt not so bad, Heroine was always with me, she was feeling how am feeling alone cuz she is goin through the same thing!! the same loneliness!! the same missing!


cuz i dont knw how to cook, how to wash my closthes, how to wash the dishes, i even dont know how to make hot tea!!

my friend sometimes used to come over here to my home and we used to study together..

he is a good cook, all he know how to cook is Noodless!!! well its better then nothing!!

i used to bring Syrdines (cooked fish) or any take away fast food!



not even Amy asked me how am i doin alone! or her family! even Amy and her family were the only family left for me in iraq in that time, bt i was totally ALONE!!

just friends of my dad and relativess were coming to me or calling me and asking me if i need something!

and ofcourse friends of me they were always with me, friends from my college, friends from the hood and my friend Heroine..

home was so quite, u can hear the air whispering!! the nights were so cold and so quite!! but the good thing is i was using my dad car in going out and doin my own things!!lol cuz dad's car was full fuel tank!!

In the first few days of the 12 days, i had a realy bad cold and then i had infection in my left ear! plus my nose was bleeding every now and then! everyday!

my nose bleed in summer time every season, bt this season the bleeding was so bad..i think cuz sometimes my blood preasure raise up!

even i bled amid of the 1st exam, cuz i was so mad and pissed cuz the test questions were so damn hard!!
i studied days and nights, hoping that i success, and hopefully i'll!


anyways, the 12 days were bad but the 2 days after were worst!!



At 12 Sept my family came back..i was kinda happy cuz i missed my mom, dad and my sisters, and i missed my mom cook! but then i hoped that they be more days absence!

and just right in the day after, my dad kicked my out of the house!!

dont worry its not cuz i brought whores to home!!, or i drank Al Kehol in the house!!, or i made a sexy party!! it wasnt cuz these things, cuz i havnt done them even..

It was cuz a silly reasons!!cuz i havnt tell him wat i did in the 12 days!!!

my dad started yelling at me and he was almost hitting me! bt my mom stopped him and she was crying..

anyways i took my car keys and my walet and i forgot to take my cellphone!! I left home and i realy felt im lost and i didnt know where to go?!!

I fired the engine and my heart and body was on fire! I headed to my friend house, then my friend came out for me! he asked me how u doin Sam? then with uncontrolled emotions I cried!!, he looked at me, and he was like, Man, r u crying?is that realy u crying??!!! watz wrong with u?... I cried like first hour born kid!!!

i cudnt talk and say anything...he asked me, Sam watz wrong? is ur family Ok?watz wrong?! you broke up with Amy?!..

i told him, ive been kicked out bro!!! my dad kicked me out!!!

he was like its alright bro, he loves u, but he is only mad lil bit, come on chill out!!

anyways i spent that day at my friend house, and in the meantime my mom was calling my friends if i stopped by them!! my older brother was looking for me too at my friends houses!
but i was in diffrent area, diffrent city! i was at my friend house who my family never heard of him!!
At night i came back to home and i took my phone and i left, cuz my dad still mad at me!

i took my phone and i kept driving my car in the highways, killing time and thinking, to be more honist? i hoped i get accedent and i die in the accedent!!

In the meantime i was talking to Heroine and she was telling me to focus on my exams and to success and she was always trying to calm me down!!, she told me wen i finish my exams i go back home and apologize to dad, bt the most important now is passing my exams..



then i went to my other friend house,and he told me to go back home and apologize to my dad!..

evantualy i ended up at my older bro home and i spent the night in his house, my bro called mom and told her that im in his house, so she stop worrying..

in the next morning my mom called me and she was crying so bad and she was telling me to come back home, i told her i cant now, but i'll sometime later today..

then i sent Amy msg and i told her that ive been kicked out!! all she said to me "its defintly ur fault Sam!!"she didnt even comfort me!!!

then one of my friend's dad called me and he was asking me if i want him to go and talk with my dad and askin my dad let me back home, cuz i have my final 2nd try exams, so i can study and pass this year! but i told him no thank u sir, i'll be alright, i'll go by myself home and things will be jst fine!!



At 4PM i went home, i sat in the car for maybe 30-45 mins thinking wat im gonna say to dad! how things will go? will he kick me out again?

i knocked the door, my lil sis opened the door and the tears were in her eyes...she was like Sam!!!

i went in and dad was taking a nap, then my mom walked to my room and she hugged me so hard and she told me ive been with ur father almost 40 years and i tolerated him for his anger!! why cant u tolerate his anger??!!
I cried on her chest and i was hearing nothing only her heart beats and her hard breaths cuz of her crying!!

i thought with myself and hoped that this heart will keep beating forever and i die before this heart!

ive never felt before this warm hug, the kindness of the mom heart!...only at that time i felt how my mom was feeling when i was gone at work, in danger areas!!, translating with USMC and US Army..
how she was afraid and scared abut me!!! I LOVE YOU MOM!


anyways after Dad woke up, i went to him, i told him dad im sorry for wat happened yeasterday and i tried to kiss his hand! but he pulled his hand and he told me to get lose!!

i walked away without sayin anything and i felt my heart was breaking harshly, then suddenly my damn nose bled!!

i went to my room, i took a deep breathe and i told Heroine wat happened and she told me that i did wat i had to do! and i realy did wat i had to do!!

at 17th Sept was my last exams and i did kinda good at it..but folks plz pray for me to success in all my tests and go to the last level, go to graduate from the college and be computers engineer!!!

i jst wanna thank all my friends who supported me in this period, tx Mad Man, Abskel, Mostafa, Heroine and everyone else!

Again Special thanx to Heroine for supporting me through my exams..you were the best perfect friend..

I love you Mom, I love you Dad, no matter what you do to me!! cuz no matter what happens you still my dad and i still your son!

Well that was my life from 10th Aug 09 -to- 17th Sept 09, is it Normal Life?! i dont think so!!!

War News Radio Interview with me & other Interps

hellos everybody,
here is the link for interview for myself and other 2 interps..
http://player.warnewsradio.org/index.php?audio_location=http://audio2.warnewsradio.org/WNR090731-LKInterpreters.mp3

and the below link is for the transcript:
http://www.warnewsradio.org/read-more/iraqi-interpreters/

hope you all will like it..
please feel free to comment..

Sam

Watz the meaning of "LIFE"?

I always ask myself lately, watz the meaning of life? or why i shudnt die wen there were alot of ppl around me died, and my life was on the edge? why i didnt die by then? is it cuz fate have a long-term tiring suck life? or short-term good nice life?
but i realy wish to die, but that doesnt mean im giving up everythin and sit do nothing..
am i shud keep fighting till my time comes?
the other night, i missed Amy so much, i havnt talk to her for more then 8 days(cuz of some problems in this shitty life)..so i decided to buy her flowers and go to her house..i left my home and i drove my car into Mansour city trying to get her some natuarl flowers, bt the flowers shops were closed cuz it was too damn late, then i went to Karada and Jadrieh, and i found only one flowers shop opening and i was like thanx god, finaly, then i went in the shop and i asked him for natuarl flowers and he was like "am sorry im out of natuarl flowers"..i was like Damn!!
i kept looking for another shop cuz i realy needed to do that and suprising her, i kept askin ppl in the street and they were thinking am i crazy or something, cuz i was looking for flowers in late time in Baghdad!!..
evantualy i cudnt find the flowers and i returned back to my home depressed and i cudnt have my dinner..
i jst wanna Amy know that my life is nothing jst like now without her&will she appreciate my life with her?

i dont know watz goin on with me, is it fate punishment to me? or its am out of luck?
can anyone plz tell me watz the meaning of "LIFE"?
cuz i see life in my side view is a bitch..am i right?
fellas if u had the choice between ur life and ur family wat will u chose?will u give away ur family and ur love away and enjoy ur life alone? would u?
am i shud chose my life with my family and my love and beg for the rest of my life?
alot of q's running in my head and my head is just gonna blow the hell up, and i realy wish it does..
LIFE sux gentlemen bt we shud do not give up!!
and i WONT give up and i'll keep fighting and i'll keep these q's running till god take my misery life away and i rest in peace!!

this post was unusaul post of me, bt it was jst something i had and i wanted to through it away..