The Most Shocking Day In My Life, Please I NEED COMMENTS here!!
On **-May-08 ( I don’t want to say which day it was, I just want to keep it for myself).
Something happened to me was very shocking and made me feel so damn bad, even the feeling I had was worse than the day when my family got threatened and worse than the day that those mother fuckers burned our house and its worse than when I felt so many times I am almost dead…
The most shockingly day to me is when I was at the college and I saw Amy walking with someone, she was always talking bad about that person, she used to say he is so fat and he doesn’t respect her and she dislikes him..
Yea people, I saw Amy walking with someone alone in the college and she saw me and she just said hi and smiled..
I've tried to act like I don’t give a damn fuck abut she and I really did but how much stress I had, I bled from my nose cuz I had hypertension that day!
The day before that I saw her for the first time when I returned after 2 months absence, she was walking alone and I was walking alone also, then she was in my way and I was thinking should I say hi to her or not? then I said fuck it, tell her hi.. I told her hello Amy, and then she turned around and looked at me and she was like H-H-HHHello Sam, I told her " take it easy and take a breath" she was like when did u come back? I told her 2 days ago but I just came to the college today, then she said what's wrong with your voice? I told her I got flu, then I told her all right c ya, bye..
She wanted to keep talking to me but I didn’t want to give her more chances to hurt me and reliving the memories of the old days, then I walked away and she did also, I won't let u to hurt me anymore Amy, I AM FUCKIN WON'T LET U..
at that day she didn’t look pretty she was normal and she had her Maroon jacket on, but the next day when I saw her with that fat ass boy, she looked nice, she had a beautiful make up on her eyes as I used to tell her and she wore a black body shirt, I used to tell her the black looks beautiful on u..
The most shocking think is when we broke up she told me Sam I can't walk with boys anymore alone or sitting together alone.. but on **-May-08 I saw her with him ALONE walking together.. she is a LIAR, CHEATER, DEVIL and UNFAITHFUL..
For all what she's done to me, if she wanted to come back to me, I'll take her back but she got to apologize and answer my questions and tell me it was not her who did all that to me..
Anyways after like 45 minutes I left the college and in the meantime my girlfriend(I call her Becky) called me, she was asking me how was I doing? I told her Becky with no offence, all the girls cheaters and liars.. she laughed and said "Sam not all".. and she asked me anything happened between Amy and u? I told her what I've seen.. she said "she just want to piss u off and don’t worry about it and live your life and smile".. I told her yea u right and its ok cuz God is unfair with me, so how the fuck I except she could be fair with me??!!..
Then Becky kept sending me SMS's with jokes trying to comfort me, I really like Becky she is cool but I'm lying to her, I keep telling that I love her but I really don’t and the problem is she loves me.. I'm thinking in telling her the truth once I get over Amy 100%..
I'd like to talk lil bit abut Becky, she is 19 years old she lives in the Green Zone, her mom divorced, and her mom works as a Senator in the Iraqi Senators Council..
She is beautiful blonde and she is so open minded girl.. she hates Muslims like I do.. we got things in common like loving the Foreign Music.. she helped me a lot in forgetting and not caring about Amy.. but I'm a bad dude I always lie to her in telling her I love u and blah blah blah..
Anyways I got back home and I slept without eating my launch for like 2 hours and then my cousin called me and said: hey Sam when the hell we are going to hang out? I told him I'll be at your house in 30mins..
I had my launch and then fired my engine and headed to my cousin.. then I told him bro I want to be wasted and feeling high tonight.. he said YEA that’s what I'm talking about..
We went to smoke Hookah (Nergielah), and it was the 1st time I smoke it since a year..
I put a drugs pill inside my hookah and start smoking it and it’s the first time I do such a thing like this, I was high as fuck, I couldn’t walk good and I couldn’t talk right.. I was really lost.. and I forgot totally abut all the pain in my heart... it made me feel so damn good..
The problem we got in is I had to drive back home for like more than 30 minutes driving to home.. I washed my face so many times and I drank a hot tea.. then I told my cousin hey mother fucker open your eyes with me I don’t wanna hit my car asshole.. he said yea damn fuck just drive slow..
I drove like a crazy I was messing with people walking on the pavements and scaring the shit out of them.. then finally we got home safely, we entered the house at 9:30pm and its too late in Baghdad..
Then I had my dinner and then start playing in my small guitar trying to express my sadness and misery..
Becky called me at about midnight and I talked to her till 530 AM and then I slept for only one hour, I didn’t tell her I'm going to college in the morning, I just told her too late, then she said I'm so sorry Sam and she called again to wake me up then I went to college.. I went to college and I was sleepy and tired as fuck..
At 20-May-08 I saw Amy at the college with another boy alone too..
after that i saw her alone and then i went to talk to her, i told her may i talk to u for lil bit? she said why?i said just a few words to say and i dont need answer from u.. she said wat u want? i told her " nice fat ass boyfriend, and i wish u a miserable life with him.." she said wat boyfriend?? then i just turned around and faded away.. i felt so good when i told her that cuz i cudnt keep it in my heart..
I'll play last 2 songs for u Amy..1st one is The Last Song I'm Wasting For You, for Amy lee(EVANESCENCE) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WPNArAVAeGM … and Arabic Iraqi Song for Haitham Yusif, Kadhabah (Liar), if u watch this video clip u'll see the same thing what happened to me.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uY8CJ19u4LI ..its the song u gave it to me Amy and u said u can't be ever a liar to me as the song says. But this is what u r now!! A god damn LIAR!!
Amy I just have one question, in the past 3 years were there lies and acting or u really loved me and liked me? I know I'll never get an answer and I'll never go and ask her, cuz she'll hurt me again.. u just so pretty in your PAIN..
I found my way out and I'll never need u again.. but I MISS U Amy, I miss u to DEATH..
But I tell myself I'm not missing u, I hope you are missing me and realizing how much I was good with u and how much u hurt me!!